The month of October brings pictures of carved pumpkins in magazines, Halloween parties, costumes of hero’s, fairies, skeletons and ghouls. In October we are each witness to the wonderous transition of nature occurring between summer and winter. Nights become colder yet the leaves of trees change into colors of warm sunlight before they slip into the slumber of earth. It is as if we are witnessing a message of hope before they die. Resurrection becomes possible against the improbable. Today different forms of chemotherapy exists. Each chemotherapy has a cycle just like the seasons of the year. Chemotherapy can be compared to the autumn trees. Each cycle of chemotherapy can target fast growing cells which include cancer cells, hair cells, eye brows, eyelashes, intestinal flora and more. Each cycle is a gradual process of stripping over time down to ones bones. Trees during the winter are exposed down to their naked branches. Even though a woman may loose her hair, her beauty and strength remain like the exposed bones of a tree. The tree remains standing in the snow, rainstorms, wind and hale. Nature is innate in bones of each woman helping her cope with cancer.
What is spirituality?
Wikipedia says Spirituality can refer to an ultimate or immaterial reality.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/spirituality A tree stripped to its branches; a woman stripped to her bones takes both the tree and the woman on a spiritual quest inward. One might think the body of the tree and the body of the woman are hibernating. Webster’s dictionary says to hibernate is to spend winter in a dormant state of sleep. This is not the case because having cancer brings an awakening to life. It is as if the fire colors of the leaves of autumn have become an internal fire lit in a womans’ heart. Love as presence causes the fire of awakening to glow in the uncertainty of her experience.
The spiritual quest of a woman diagnosed with cancer involves:
- Moving from fear into hope. A diagnosis of cancer can be overwhelming. A woman moves from the question of “Am I going to die? ” to “How do I want to live?”
- Who am I as a spiritual person? How do I re-connect with my body as my friend?
- How do I use my spirituality to assist in my healing and wellness?
- How do I develop the resources of my heart to assist me in my life at this time?
Healing from cancer, receiving chemotherapy and radiation can be a paradox. Our bodies are a miraculous testimony of both illness and health. Chemotherapy gives one the experience of holding both at the same time. While much of what a woman goes though in her treatment feels incomprehensible, she can allow her body to receive it’s intention to heal.
The spiriual quest of a woman with a diagnosis of cancer moves her heart into a state of gratitude. It is gratitude for who she is; for the gift of her life, family and friends; the experiences of love and beauty, the magnitude of infinite love which she is and has always and will always be part of.