And I don’t mean cutsie, or big teddy bear lovable. I mean have you asked yourself if it’s even possible for someone to actually love you? Have you said that to yourself before? Do you actually believe that no one could love you? Do you have these thoughts? Have you said these things to yourself before?
How many times has love let you down? Perhaps you were in a relationship, and you really fell hard for them. I mean, to the point that you couldn’t believe it was actually happening. But early on you started getting the sense that this person had another side to them. One that might be deceiving you. They said they loved you, but their actions said something entirely different.
Well, you finally faced the fact that it wasn’t real and you yourself summoned the strength and ended it. Then you spent the next year of your life wondering if they ever loved you. What could have been driving them? Why would they pretend to love you to your face, and yet, they really didn’t.
How much of it was your fault? Maybe you came on too strong. Or maybe you told them it was the happiest you’d ever been. What if you spooked them? When you started sensing trouble, maybe you came on that much stronger. Maybe insecurities drove you to try to reason with them, but they didn’t respond favorably. They made it seem like you were overreacting.
Why do you have these thoughts? Don’t you know the problem was them? They’re messed up. Look in their past. What do you see? They had it rough. They didn’t really know how to love, and they were too scared to admit a weakness. What I’d like you to realize is that it was never you. It was them all along. They’ve just been deranged for so long that they’re experts at twisting things to make you look like the jerk.
I want you to know that you ARE lovable. You DO deserve better. There IS someone out there that will give you the world. But not until you get better. Not until you learn to love yourself. Because until you love yourself, you can’t be your best. You can’t stand with dignity and be the person they would look to for comfort. So look inside your heart, and realize it’s a good one. Look at your soul and see the shining light that emanates. Are you lovable? Absolutely! But the first person who must love you–is you!